Raw Emotions

I have forgotten how ugly and unlovable I truly am

Until I receive a swift reminder from someone I care so deeply about.

I guess it's okay to throw me aside like I'm nothing

Cause I've been nothing from the start

So I might as well be nothing forever on.

It can be so hard being so strong 

When you're literally defending yourself from the rest of the world.

I suppose I just let people in to give them the satisfaction of 

Ripping me apart time and time again.

I suppose it is my own fault though for 

Not being good enough to be worthwhile.

I really can't compete with something that is worthwhile with the way I am.

My only option is to continue on in hopes that 

I'll actually matter one day to someone.

This is not how I always feel, in fact, this is how I rarely feel.  This was during a time of high emotions and lack of an opportunity to talk out my problems with someone.  This is, however, how my mind can run from time to time.

Break by Three Days Grace

"Tonight my head is spinning  

I need something to pick me up  

I've tried but nothing is working  

I won't stop, I won't say I've had enough
Tonight I start the fire  

Tonight I break away
Break away from everybody  

Break away from everything 

If you can't stand the way this place is  

Take yourself to higher places
At night I feel like a vampire  

It's not right but I just can't give it up 

I'll try to get myself higher  

Let's go we're gonna light it up
Tonight we start the fire  

Tonight we break away
Break away from everybody  

Break away from everything 

If you can't stand the way this place is 

Take yourself to higher places
If you can't stand the way this place is 

Take yourself to higher places
Break away from everybody  

Break away from everything  

If you can't stand the way this place is 

Take yourself to higher places
Higher places, to higher places  

Higher places, take yourself to higher places"

 These lyrics have had a rather large impact on me because it reminds me why I'm going to school and why I need to persevere in my endeavors.  I had to learn at a very young age that not only do I have to protect myself but that I have to make the changes that I want to happen.  I have never had it easy in my life and giving up is just so darn easy but it will also prevent me from achieving my goals.  As difficult as it is, I'm putting myself through college and paying for it through money, lack of sleep, and no free time.  I know that despite the difficulties I have putting myself through college, I will have the life I want when I'm done.  As far as I'm concerned, nothing will get in my way of success and bettering my life. 

Incandescent by The Paper Melody

I love this video.  It takes you on a cool journey with paper.  I think the artists are rather creative in the way they bring this video together.

Poison

Am I sleeping or am I awake?

I thought I was sleeping but I just keep blinking.

I'm so exhausted.

Why can't I just sleep?

It must be that delicious poison I drink to stay awake 

During those long long nights that never seem to end.

They never seem to work until I try to sleep.

Only then does that scrumptious poison kick in.

That luscious poison knows what it's doing.

It keeps me up for days at a time.

Thursday to Sunday is the most popular.

I won't sleep until Sunday night, if I'm lucky that is.

My body attempts to recover in the next few days.

These attempts are futile of course 

Because Thursday always comes so soon.

And so the cycle begins again with that sweet sweet poison.

Magnectic Dinosaur

This is a dinosaur I made on my fridge while switching out books between class and work.  The material I used is pretty awesome.  The product is called Smart Mass and the specific one I used is called Magnetic Black Hole.  That's right, it's magnetic!  This material is like Silly Putty but a whole lot cooler because you can do just about anything with it without ruining it. 

"The Kill" by The Dresdon Dolls

Because sometimes you just need to stand up and fight.  Even when it is against your own imagination.

Fainting Goats

Funny with some education.  What's not to love?