Monster by Skillet

"The secret side of me I never let you see 

I keep it caged, but I can't control it  

So stay away from me, the beast is ugly  

I feel the rage and I just can't hold it
It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls  

It comes awake, and I can't control it 

Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head  

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin  

I must confess that I feel like a monster 

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun  

I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster 

I, I feel like a monster
My secret side I keep hid under lock and key  

I keep it caged, but I can't control it 

'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down  

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster  

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun  

I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin 

I must confess that I feel like a monster 

I, I feel like a monster I, I feel like a monster
It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp  

There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart 

No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream  

Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin  

I must confess that I feel like a monster  

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun 

I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin  

I must confess that I feel like a monster  

I've gotta lose control, he something radical  

I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster 

I, I feel like a monster  

I, I feel like a monster  

I, I feel like a monster"

I think we have all felt this way at some point in our lives.  I tend to feel this way with my words because I can have a rather sharp tongue at times.  Sometimes my words of cruelty come out before I have a chance to lessen the blow.   I'm sure most people can relate to this.

Raw Emotions

I have forgotten how ugly and unlovable I truly am

Until I receive a swift reminder from someone I care so deeply about.

I guess it's okay to throw me aside like I'm nothing

Cause I've been nothing from the start

So I might as well be nothing forever on.

It can be so hard being so strong 

When you're literally defending yourself from the rest of the world.

I suppose I just let people in to give them the satisfaction of 

Ripping me apart time and time again.

I suppose it is my own fault though for 

Not being good enough to be worthwhile.

I really can't compete with something that is worthwhile with the way I am.

My only option is to continue on in hopes that 

I'll actually matter one day to someone.

This is not how I always feel, in fact, this is how I rarely feel.  This was during a time of high emotions and lack of an opportunity to talk out my problems with someone.  This is, however, how my mind can run from time to time.

Break by Three Days Grace

"Tonight my head is spinning  

I need something to pick me up  

I've tried but nothing is working  

I won't stop, I won't say I've had enough
Tonight I start the fire  

Tonight I break away
Break away from everybody  

Break away from everything 

If you can't stand the way this place is  

Take yourself to higher places
At night I feel like a vampire  

It's not right but I just can't give it up 

I'll try to get myself higher  

Let's go we're gonna light it up
Tonight we start the fire  

Tonight we break away
Break away from everybody  

Break away from everything 

If you can't stand the way this place is 

Take yourself to higher places
If you can't stand the way this place is 

Take yourself to higher places
Break away from everybody  

Break away from everything  

If you can't stand the way this place is 

Take yourself to higher places
Higher places, to higher places  

Higher places, take yourself to higher places"

 These lyrics have had a rather large impact on me because it reminds me why I'm going to school and why I need to persevere in my endeavors.  I had to learn at a very young age that not only do I have to protect myself but that I have to make the changes that I want to happen.  I have never had it easy in my life and giving up is just so darn easy but it will also prevent me from achieving my goals.  As difficult as it is, I'm putting myself through college and paying for it through money, lack of sleep, and no free time.  I know that despite the difficulties I have putting myself through college, I will have the life I want when I'm done.  As far as I'm concerned, nothing will get in my way of success and bettering my life. 

Incandescent by The Paper Melody

I love this video.  It takes you on a cool journey with paper.  I think the artists are rather creative in the way they bring this video together.