I have forgotten how ugly and unlovable I truly am
Until I receive a swift reminder from someone I care so deeply about.
I guess it's okay to throw me aside like I'm nothing
Cause I've been nothing from the start
So I might as well be nothing forever on.
It can be so hard being so strong
When you're literally defending yourself from the rest of the world.
I suppose I just let people in to give them the satisfaction of
Ripping me apart time and time again.
I suppose it is my own fault though for
Not being good enough to be worthwhile.
I really can't compete with something that is worthwhile with the way I am.
My only option is to continue on in hopes that
I'll actually matter one day to someone.