Raw Emotions

I have forgotten how ugly and unlovable I truly am

Until I receive a swift reminder from someone I care so deeply about.

I guess it's okay to throw me aside like I'm nothing

Cause I've been nothing from the start

So I might as well be nothing forever on.

It can be so hard being so strong 

When you're literally defending yourself from the rest of the world.

I suppose I just let people in to give them the satisfaction of 

Ripping me apart time and time again.

I suppose it is my own fault though for 

Not being good enough to be worthwhile.

I really can't compete with something that is worthwhile with the way I am.

My only option is to continue on in hopes that 

I'll actually matter one day to someone.

This is not how I always feel, in fact, this is how I rarely feel.  This was during a time of high emotions and lack of an opportunity to talk out my problems with someone.  This is, however, how my mind can run from time to time.